Finals!!!

Eeeks!!! I hate finals!!! I have a paper to finish writing...my last paper for the semester. Yay!!

Tonight....ugh is our final review for Administrative Law :( This class I have to say is probably the one I am most scared to get my grade. This semester has been tough!! My personal life went downhill and then school suffered because of it.

Next semester will hopefully be better. Sorry I just had to vent for a little bit.

Christmas is coming :D

Now I have to admit...Christmas is my most favorite holiday of the year. I love all the shopping I get to do, the decorations and the time I get to spend with my family. I have been especially missing them this year. Especially my sister. She is the best twin sister I could ask for. She is always there with a listening ear and when I am bawling she listens to me through my rants. 

This year I have decided I don't really want anything. I have everything I could ask for. I know everyone says this every year. But I evaluated what I want or need and you know....I don't want or need anything. I am not trying to be modest it is just how I feel. I actually want to go to the giving tree this year and buy Christmas for someone else. I hope there are still names left. 

I am going home again this year. I will be leaving Christmas Eve and drive eight hours to Gallup, New Mexico. Sometimes I wish I lived closer but then I thank Heavenly Father for my many blessings and blessing me with my current career. I love what I do so much. It is fulfilling and fun.

November 2, 2011

So I am sitting here entering some cards for work. And I thought you know I am going to post in my blog. I haven't written anything in it for so long. This semester has been a period of growing and change. I am in my fourth semester of graduate school. I passed all my classes thus far and need just two more semesters. I have an MRP I need to write but am being lazy about.  Oh yea I forgot to mention I got a new position and I love it. I am the Database Coordinator for Prospective Student Services at UVU. I started this position in September 2011. I love it but sometimes miss my old job. Then I remember I don't have to put up with any drama :D

October was a month I do not care to remember. It just was not a month I wish to reflect on or to ponder. I realized I am not happy and I am also not excelling in school like I used to. I need to remember why I am pursuing this degree and actually have fun with it.  Right now it feels like a chore.  I also can't stop being paranoid about certain things.

I have this best friend and he and I have always been there for eachother. I feel like I am right in standing my ground on what I believe is the right way to approach the situation we are in.  I have cried and stomped my feet and acted like a little kid. I know I should not feel this way but I do. I guess it is the stubbornness in me and I can't give up yet. I have given up so much for him. Why can't he do the same for me??

I also got a new tattoo. I have always wanted one :D It hurt and I wanted to cry but then I thought people who have tattoos do not cry when they get them. So man up and take it like the woman you are. Haha!! It was liberating to actually do something I have wanted for so long. I also didn't get scared like I thought I would.

Now to wait for what is to come. I have been dreading this holiday season because I just don't know where I will be in a month. Hopefully there isn't much more change I have to endure the rest of the year.