November 2, 2011

So I am sitting here entering some cards for work. And I thought you know I am going to post in my blog. I haven't written anything in it for so long. This semester has been a period of growing and change. I am in my fourth semester of graduate school. I passed all my classes thus far and need just two more semesters. I have an MRP I need to write but am being lazy about.  Oh yea I forgot to mention I got a new position and I love it. I am the Database Coordinator for Prospective Student Services at UVU. I started this position in September 2011. I love it but sometimes miss my old job. Then I remember I don't have to put up with any drama :D

October was a month I do not care to remember. It just was not a month I wish to reflect on or to ponder. I realized I am not happy and I am also not excelling in school like I used to. I need to remember why I am pursuing this degree and actually have fun with it.  Right now it feels like a chore.  I also can't stop being paranoid about certain things.

I have this best friend and he and I have always been there for eachother. I feel like I am right in standing my ground on what I believe is the right way to approach the situation we are in.  I have cried and stomped my feet and acted like a little kid. I know I should not feel this way but I do. I guess it is the stubbornness in me and I can't give up yet. I have given up so much for him. Why can't he do the same for me??

I also got a new tattoo. I have always wanted one :D It hurt and I wanted to cry but then I thought people who have tattoos do not cry when they get them. So man up and take it like the woman you are. Haha!! It was liberating to actually do something I have wanted for so long. I also didn't get scared like I thought I would.

Now to wait for what is to come. I have been dreading this holiday season because I just don't know where I will be in a month. Hopefully there isn't much more change I have to endure the rest of the year.