My roots and School!!!

I will be going home this coming Wednesday and helping some of my Uncles and Aunties clean out my Grandma and Grandpa Adakai's old houses.  Where I grew up was the best place I could ever ask for.  I didn't grow up poor or anything and I was always around my family.  My grandparents always made it better.  I have a twin sister and her and I were probably a handful for my grandparents but they loved us unconditionally.  I remember waking up and hearing my grandpa outside getting ready for the day.  He was the best grandpa I could ever ask for.  My grandma was the best too because she always loved each and every one of us the same.  So this weekend I return to my roots and also a bit of soul searching.  I know they counseled me when I was growing up to go to school and always love my family.  I hope I don't get too emotional this weekend because ever since their passing I hate going out to the old houses because it doesn't feel the same.

Hopefully I can remember who I was and also remember their teachings when I return home this weekend :D

So I started school almost two months ago and I have realized I am not a writer.  When I get down to writing what I think, I sometimes find myself saying "Why do they want to know what I have to say....My opinion does not matter...." But then I realize I do have something to say and I need to say it loud and clear.  Well how do you do that when you are so used to being the quiet one and the one who doesn't like to ask for anything.  This has been one of my challenges for the year.  I am so used to giving to everyone else and asking for nothing in return.